Today is November 1st and for me it was suposse to be the start of something great. P90x and eating healthy on weight watchers and more movement/ walking.  It started off great..then I went out unprepared got hungry, actually ravenous and I ate the closest thing to me (my 2yr olds holloween candy). Great, I messed up I should probably wait until after the holidays anyway right? NO NO NO NOOOOOOOO. I always do that, start over some later date. I have to learn not to beat myself up and not to put it off. I messed up ok lets bring the rest of the day home strong!
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My goal is to loose 10 lbs this month, do p90x everyday starting today AND follow weight watchers afterall its 80% what you put in your mouth right? 10lbs may be alot to expect during turkey month and the holidays but it is important to me to go into the new year on track not starting out on the resolution band wagon. That has not worked for me. I would love to loose a total of 20 lbs by new years but its really not a numbers game for me right now. The most important thing for me is to get up daily and push play (thats p90x talk lol). Count my point and stay motivated!.
  I weigh in tomorrow and although I am not ready to post my starting weight I will post my .... no scratch that this is about accountability for me so yeah I will be posting my start weight tomorrow and updating it weekly!

Set Back or .....

  I set this blog up awhile ago and never got started on it. I planned to use it to track my weight loss journey and keep myself accountable. No better time than now to get started. I started weight watchers and love it. I am still trying to get into my groove with it. I struggled choosing btwn WW and Clean eating and decided Clean eating on WW was best because when I choose unclean foods I can still stay accountable and I wont feel like I "messed up".
  I started out trying to do Insanity and P90x lol. I am not anywhere near in shape to do either one of these programs. Then I had the nerve to try a hybrid lol. Don't get me wrong I think these 2 programs are phenomenal. I plan on completing both in the very near future right now however I need to get into the habit of exercising. That's what works for me, building up.
  Sooo I found a gym with am daycare I got my son (20mnths) used to the providers. Met with a trainer got a plan set up. Stopped drinking got focused excited motivated ready to gooooo! Then .... I was in an car accident ;-( and my shoulder, neck and lower back hurt I am under a Dr care and cant workout right now. The frustration level is HIGH right now. I have a choice chuck it all and start again when I am cleared to work out (old mentality) OR I can make a change right here right now!!!
  So I pledge to me to get WW under my belt. to plan my meals and enjoy the food I eat to make healthy choices try new recipes to get emotional eating under control to figure this part out. I kinda feel like God is saying first things first. My pattern has been to try to do everything at once and accomplish nothing.I Cant keep doing the same thing and expect a new result.
  This is my journey, the good the bad and the awesome. I am going to have great days and not so great days but everyday is a new day and I will take it 1 at a time.